2am journal entry

Hello, you! 
    I suppose this new journal situation should be used since I set up my page to do so. I painted my nails today (fingernails red; toenails pink, if you were wondering)! Today started quite moody for me, but eventually coffee helped soften the beast within. You know?
    I'm excited, but nervous about the end of my first year at University! I cleaned my room yesterday, so it's less messy in my dorm! I enjoyed my Easter chocolates too much probably. They're almost all gone :( 
   I honestly don't want to post anything too personal on here since real-life people might possibly read this. I've been doing alright, though. Things don't always work out how you think they're going to. And this fact can really mess with you when you get caught by surprise over something you thought was sturdy. I've been dealing with my emotions pretty positively though, I think. This past month and a half has been rough, though, let me tell you. But not, because I don't really want to elaborate.
    Sometimes I do wonder if I'll ever find, you know, love again (lol). But, I mean Jennifer Aniston found someone after Brad Pitt. I think? Or is the expression the other way around? Brad Pitt found Angelina Jolie after Jennifer Aniston? Well.... isn't Angelina Jolie filing for a divorce from Brad Pitt now??? Damn. LOL 
    Whatever, I'm not going to worry about that anyways. I don't really have any desires to find anyone else right now. Or to find any short-term fling or comfort. Not my style. Maybe that's why I made this website---- oh my gosh, I have to pee and my suitemate decided to take a shower--- anyways, who knows? 
     Whatever will end up being meant to be, will happen. I'm trying to focus more on myself. Trying to calm my mind more. For example, I'm blogging right now! I've been slightly more involved in my YouTube channel also. I haven't really been going to the gym all that much besides yoga. Speaking of, that's at 10AM tomorrow, and it's almost 2AM... 
    I was thinking about writing on here everyday a little bit to encourage myself to write stories more. That was a long sentence. I don't know. I'm sort of neurotic...or, maybe not neurotic, but I overthink things. Sometimes, I think it's the hormones in my implant. I don't know bro lol. 
    I'm going to go to sleep... after I pee...after my suitemate's shower. 
   Life's been good to me, I think. Kind of rough mentally, but it could be worse. It is worse for some people. I'm grateful for the people I have in my life now, the experiences I've been able to be a part of, and God. I'm not really a religious person, but I think someone's up there. Whether it be God, the Universe, whatever. What's it to ya? My beliefs don't affect you, do they? Lol
My father came back to the states today! He didn't call me back, though... hmf... lol 

Sleep tight, my lovelies. Try to think of something you're grateful of today, as well. Have a fabulously wonderous day!

Stay cool! Stay breezy! Stay unique! Stay groovy! 

xx
​Skizzy Sars